And that was Emma’s birthday

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And there were lots of other things they did and activities but I’ll leave that to the other moms to post. I didn’t get a chance to capture it all. 🙂 Was just a little busy…this was Emma after it. Hehe, love my babe

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But who isn’t tired after a long and exciting party?!  🙂

I can’t stand it

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I can’t stand it. I’m done and ready to run away. To California. Florida or Texas. Somewhere that IS NOT RAINING! I am done.

I’m sitting on our couch looking outside at the wind, rain and cold temps and am about to make a cup of tea. Boo.

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Complain. Complain, I know. I shouldn’t be complaining. But I am so bothered by the rain. Argh! This is it. My very deep insightful post. Will I have to cover Emma in winter clothes for Easter?! 🙁

God,

Will you please stop the rain and bring warmer temps? I would LOVE to go outside without a heavy coat, scarf and umbrella. Thanks.

Me

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OK, and this is me with a clearer mind. My mom said something that was so refreshing. She said, ‘If rain equates to beautiful flowers, we are going to have the most beautiful summer’. Thanks mom! What a good outlook. And, we are not having any flooding or nasty outages or anything. Just constant drizzle, hailstorm and random burst of sunshine. An typical spring day in Oregon.

Question: would you rather have a rainy spring and a mild pretty summer OR a a dryer spring and a hot hot hot summer?

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Food Coloring

Belle Birthday Cake

Whoever created and invented food coloring made my weekend. Emma’s cake is nothing but white cake and whipped white icing. But thanks to them, Emma was ecstatic over her Belle Princess cake.

The stand is a beautiful Polish pie dish upside down on top of a candle holder.  Try and not look at Belle’s googly eyes. They’re hypnotic.

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The girls loved it and it was amazingly great, especially since it’s just a white cake. The inside was pink. Brilliant pink. Which the little princesses didn’t eat-they focused on the icing. Such good 3 year olds. 🙂

Belle Princess CakeI’m sure this whole post has gotten a certain someone annoyed all these pictures are portrait. Didn’t mean to but I certainly recognized a pattern in how I take pictures.

REACH Polska

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I blogged here today. Talked about Emma’s preschool possibility and how God has guided us along the way. Check it out! 🙂

 

ps. and yes, birthday pictures will be posted as soon as they are edited.

friends

In the past few days I have had women open up and express how they’re feeling about themselves, their family and relationships overall and I am SO encouraged and deeply grateful to each of them.

As we talked, none of us had answers for each other. We listened and sat. The level of depth and vulnerability was touching. Different women. Different hang out times.

It is like that moment when you walk outside in the snow and everything is silent with so much beauty around and you feel like if you speak then it will break.

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It’s times like these I need to remember. It is so easy for me to feel isolated and frustrated. But when I open my eyes and reread posts like these, it reminds me that God is moving in the hearts of the women friends around me and we’re trying our best to share in it together. We might not be all at the same pace, but we’re kinda patient. Loving it.

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I’m now needing to push myself to read my book for book club. Really excited to get together with the ladies. I think I’m only on….maybe chapter 3? I have about a month. I can do it.

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The sun is shinning. Love it. Miss it. Praying for Spring to start. Maybe it has but the temperature sure hasn’t risen. Boo.

But for these 2 min in a day when the sun is bright I’m thankful. 🙂

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My darling baby girl is turning 3 Saturday. Belle Princess party. Pictures? Oh definitely.

Getting over this morning

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I failed today. This morning I was trying to hurry my 3 yr old (which is an oxymoron) and to make a long drawn out story short- I lost my patience. I raised my voice. There were punishments for her attitude/choices which just made me feel more stressed.

And all for an appointment that NEVER HAPPENED! If I had taken the 10 seconds it takes to check my phone I would have seen the text. But no, I hurried my Emma to church, which she started to cry as I dropped her off. That never happens. Usually she never looks back to say bye. Hard morning.

I drove to this appointment (which, again, had been canceled- argh!) feeling horrible. And as I was talking to God about it all, I was realizing that I was justifying my actions because of her attitude and choices. How mature. Let’s compare ourselves to a pre-schooler!

I then asked myself why I was feeling horrible, and I realized that my actions this morning was not out of love, but out of frustration, impatience and stress. I did a lot of reacting. Not much thinking. I actually felt a lot better after identifying my feelings and the action steps after was not too hard to come up with.

When I picked  Emma up (who hugged me so tight it hurt my heart), I took her to a quiet secluded place and recounted this morning to her. I told her I was sorry for yelling and my attitude was not good. I said that Jesus and I talked and I apologized to her. She smiled and said she forgave me. Then we kissed and hugged.

We also have snuggled a lot today. Both of us wanting to heal the hurt that was this morning.

So that’s how I’m doing today. You?

As of 3:20 pm

Today’s been one of those days that once I woke up I was focused and had energy to do what needed to be done. It’s amazing. Doesn’t happen that much.

Here is a little clue:

I’ve done the laundry. All of it. Hallelujah.

Made/stocked up on homemade soup. Freezing as we speak.

Made lots of chocolate/marshmelllo cookies for daddy/daughter. Froze about 30 cookie dough balls ready for a rainy day. Chocolate chip and lots of coconut. Yum.

Made a white bean garlicky spread for a girly pizza. And an olive spread. I love those little salty bites. Olives=goodness.

Cleaned out fridge.

Watched Sleeping Beauty with my princess.

Did the emails, about to edit picts of my sisters photo shoot and eating soup.

I have decided on the EASY Polish dish I will attempt. żurek

I am praying it will be eatable but we’ll see in the end. It’s a favorite of Travis’. Here’s to trying new things and hopefully being able to taste a bit of Poland soon in our home!

Tuesday

Today is a day for dipping pretzels into Nutella. It’s a day for drinking hot tea that almost burns my tongue.

It’s a day to be thankful for the amazing man God put into my life.

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It’s a day of me praying to God, ‘pleeeeease let Emma take a nap!’ (Right now she’s been in her bed for 1 hr. ugh guess it will be an early bedtime)

It’s a day for Emma to learn her shapes and focus on the letter E.

It’s a day that will end in pj’s, slippers and tutus. Homemade chocolate chip pancakes. Lots of syrup. Peanut butter. And eggs on the side.

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What does your Tuesday look like?

cocoa cake

I made a couple individualized cakes tonight for a dessert- Trav was craving something sweet- and this was small, chocolate and warm. Perfect.

You just mix all the ingredients (at end of post) together and then heat the mug/cup in the microwave for 2 min. That’s it!

I am lame for two reasons. One, I don’t like chocolate (which alienates me horribly from my sex) and secondly because I do not have the recipe near me to write here for you. But I will try my best to write it down for you from memory:

1 egg, 3 T of veggie oil, 2 T of cocoa powder, 1/4 C flour, 4 T suger and 3 T of milk. Hah! I think I that’s it!

Just mix and microwave.

I splashed a little salt on top for the sweet/salty combo. Bad idea. Don’t do it.

One batch allowed for two of these cups. Just fill 1/2-3/4 of way. Dust with any remaining cocoa powder. You can really personalize these by adding flavors, soaked raisins, Kahlua or white chocolate chips. Just a few ideas.

Enjoy!

my not so good, very bad day

Guest author: Emma

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hello everyone. i thought i would be the guest author today and bring everyone up to date on how i’m doing. basically i’m doing a lot better. like 100% better, but mommy still wants to have this day be chill so i don’t ‘over do’ myself.

yesterday was horrible for me. i was spinning in the kitchen and watching mom singing the ABC’s on mommy’s cell phone when i lost my balance and fell down. i then was hot, tired and threw up a grand total of 5 times yesterday. i slept, rested and vegged the entire day.

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mommy and daddy got a little worried and called the doctor but they said things were ok and that it was nothing serious. i am just super sensitive to spinning things and get extreme cases of motion sickness. lucky me.

but today is different. like totally. for breakfast i told my mommy that i NEEDED chocolate and ice cream because i’m still needing to get better. she laughed (how rude!) and instead we compromised on a waffle with nutella.

this is a picture of me being married. i told mom ‘i am married’ and she didn’t laugh like i thought she would. her eyes got huge and a worried look came over her face. she asked me where i learned that and told me i was too young to pretend being a bride. i think i totally freaked her out. (the power!!! muahaha!)

he then started to smile and said not to move so she could take  my picture. i posed. i’m beautiful.

there has not been any throw up (which i don’t like to do even though i get attention) and my hot flashed have left me. i’m starving today and really thirsty. mommy is super relieved.

the end.