I’ve felt these past few days have been in a funk. But haven’t really realized it till today. Don’t you hate that?!
*Travis’ 30 birthday is tomorrow and it’s stressing me out. (the planning) I hate admin things. As in I’d rather scrub toilets than do planning/calling/etc.
*I’ve considered canceling my Etsy account because I’m comparing my items to others and mine seem elementary.
* We took back our cats and I’ve had the worst sleep since Emma was born.
*I’ve thought about blogging but had a bad attitude about it. I’ve in fact, began to compare this blog to another. One that is extremely different than mine. I’m sure you’ve heard the popular phrase, ‘Comparison steals joy’
That pretty much sums up my whole week, my joy got stolen. I gave it up actually. Have you ever felt that way? Mixed with ‘every day to do lists’ makes for an emotionally tiring week.
A week where I did a lot everyday but now have trouble remembering what I did.
So why am I talking with you now? Well…
today I had a breakdown and hit a parked cop car.
Just kidding. 😉 Wouldn’t that be the worst?! hehehe
My moment actually came in my home, caused by a headache that threatened to end my life. (yes, I love the dramatics)
I normally get two kinds of headaches. Stress and coffee. Today they decided to team up on me.
So as I put in Emma’s second movie of the day, and I snuggled in my quilt my mom made (which is the comfiest/warmest quilt ever) I was forced to analyze why I felt horrible. I wanted it to go away so I needed to learn why it was here. Coffee part- easy fix. Stress- not so much.
Long story short, I realized I was putting too much expectations on myself trying to make Travis’ birthday ‘extra special’. Yes it’s his 30th, and it’s important to celebrate him getting really REALLY old. But I need to remember what he wants. He’s simple. Relational. He could care less if I make a banner with his name in blue polka dots. (which yes, I was actually going to do)
So as I sit here with a coffee in hand sitting next to Emma in the bath, I felt the desire to tell you that if you find yourself relating to this post- you might want to check yourself… before you get a headache or worse. Our bodies will tell us when we’ve gone too far, and it’s usually not fun.
Here is a refreshing reminder I found on Pinterest. Peace out.