My Personal Silent Civil War

There are days when you feel like even though you might not have tons planned- the day feels as though it sped by like a whirl wind. Today I volunteered for a couple hours, got home to pay bills, talk with a construction guy because Emma’s ceiling is leaking bad, fold laundry and hurry to go to a meeting. I had to leave early (1 1/2 hr long meeting with Emma….yeah) and we’re having small group here tonight.
That is probably the highlight of my day, although it hasn’t happened yet. I love small groups and even though that may sound cliche I love them. Travis and I are starting our second and it should be great. We already are leading one that meets every other Sunday and this one will be meeting every other Tuesday. There is something about people that I like.
I used to think that I didn’t relate well to people (girls in particular) and I would stray off feeling uncomfortable. That did nothing for my first impressions. Trust me- I have a best friend now that thought I was intimidated for the first 6 months we knew each other. Intimidating! ME! Once you get to know me that’s laughable. * sigh. But I’m going through this class called, “Genesis” and it peels back the emotionalism of life and deals with the why questions. Why did I stray away and feel awkward around people? Well, I have learned a lot and now see myself through a better/healthier lens.
So when we have people over I can be myself and genuinely be interested in their lives instead of fighting my personal silent civil war inside.
On another topic- I am in love with the blogging world. There are so many new and exciting blogs that I can now see how people can get sucked into the realm known as the blogesphere and never return. 🙂 However I have a baby so she makes me deal with the realities of life. I love her. OK, well of to make dinner in 30 min. – Rachele Ray you got nothin‘ over me! 🙂