from my perspective

There have been many perspectives that you, the reader, should get about our time here so far. It has, for me, been a wirl wind of emotions and also of sleepless nights. But they are not all negative. I will start with our trip over: I was freaked out about the flights and Emma. It is amazing when you travel with your child, how emotionally exhausting it is! (you might be laughing at that but just wait for your own child…) Altogether she did amazing. There was a few times when she let the ENTIRE plane know that she wasn’t happy- but it only happened once or twice. When we arrived at Krakow, we were tired, emotional and a bit grumpy. Altogether the trip only took 19 hours. Not horrible but not fantastic either.
We had to be ready for school the next day. Which included that we all sleep and be rested. For the most part that happened and our time here was showing itself to be friendly. However it all took a turn for the worst when we arrived at the tram. As we were waiting in beautiful autumn weather, I began shaking. I’ve never experienced this before so I wasn’t sure what was happening. I had no control and my hands/arms whatever was shaking crazily. I stuffed them into my pockets not to make a scene, but they didn’t stop when we boarded the tram. ALL of us. Me, Travis, Emma and Charis. The stroller too. So we were a big party and most people were curious about who we were but didn’t want to show they were watching us. Whatever, I’m sure I’ve done it myself. But as I was standing there my head burst in a hot flash and my ears were burning as was the rest of my head. Then my hearing went. I knew I was gong to faint and I imediatly began looking for a soft spot to fall. You know, when you get in those situations, you just go instinctivly and you do what you gotta do. So I drape myself over the baby stroller- which at this time Emma is beginning to cry. I tell Tav that I’m going to pass out and he tries to help me up- bad deciccion. His arm went around my kneck and I couldn’t breath well and I just wished I had passed out- it would have been a whole lot easier. But after that I knew I was gonig to throw up. So I look to what I can throw up in- and really, who brings bags to throw up in? Nobody. So I’m having to improvise and take Emma’s blanket. Oh and she’s really screaming now. As the lovely liquid escapes my mouth I could hear others moaning and hear Trav gasping in shock. I do it three more times. It splattered on the ground of the tram and others move around the yuckiness. Great, so school hasn’t started, Emma’s freaking out, and I’m chucking up breakfast and Trav and Charis are torn between making Emma happy (which never happened) and soothing me. Poor people- they should get something special for what they endured that morning. That was MY experience. It could have been worse…but I’m glad it was over. I think it could have been an anxiety attack (which I’ve never had before).
I used to think that when people start to chake or feel sick because of nerves I thought they were wimps. There I said it. I thought they just needed to suck it up and deal with whatever situation they were afraid of. Well, I change my attitude right here and now. I am here to tell you I had no control over my shaking or wether I would pass out or throw up…it just happened.
On the other hand Charis last night was throwing up every hour, Emma woke up at 3 AM rested and ready for the day and Brandon got lost so many times and walked around Krakow so much that he should be a tour guide here. Trav has started to feel ‘under the weather’ today, I wonder what that will bring up.
Including all these drama like experiences, things have been really good. We love the people who we’re staying with. The weather has been amazing and we’re really falling in love with Krakow in a new way. Man I love the city. Thank you for all the prayers and I ask that they keep coming! School is going well- I feel overwhelmed everyday but I’ve never been more motivated to learn Polish, and it REALLY helps that the teachers there are amazingly patient and kind. I’m taking loads of picts too so I’ll post some on here and facebook. Ok, Emma is asleep and trav is out with some Germans and others at a jazz concert in the main square-lucky duck. Missions has never been so rough. 😉 Aris and Brandon have already prayed for a number of people. And we’re going to a home group tomorrow night. Blessings and smiles from across the world!

ps. the spell check isn’t working right on this computer because it’s still in Polish. So it says evrey word is misspelled. So I’ve just given up with spelling right. Sorry reader, I guess this not only was an update letter but also one that tried your patience. 🙂

About Alexis

Thanks for visiting! I'm a happy mom and wife who loves the smell of books, traveling and food. I like dreaming about alter egos, snuggling with Emma and going on dates with hubby,Travis. Pretty much anything creative I'm into. I hope you enjoy my rants and raves and come back soon. Oh, and I love comments so please feel free to let me know what you think!
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One Response to from my perspective

  1. Leah S. says:

    Yikes girl! So you are feeling better? I have a blog now and added you to my blog roll… http://www.leahsfavoritethings.com
    Take care of yourself over there!