Today is a day for dipping pretzels into Nutella. It’s a day for drinking hot tea that almost burns my tongue.

It’s a day to be thankful for the amazing man God put into my life.


It’s a day of me praying to God, ‘pleeeeease let Emma take a nap!’ (Right now she’s been in her bed for 1 hr. ugh guess it will be an early bedtime)

It’s a day for Emma to learn her shapes and focus on the letter E.

It’s a day that will end in pj’s, slippers and tutus. Homemade chocolate chip pancakes. Lots of syrup. Peanut butter. And eggs on the side.


What does your Tuesday look like?

cocoa cake

I made a couple individualized cakes tonight for a dessert- Trav was craving something sweet- and this was small, chocolate and warm. Perfect.

You just mix all the ingredients (at end of post) together and then heat the mug/cup in the microwave for 2 min. That’s it!

I am lame for two reasons. One, I don’t like chocolate (which alienates me horribly from my sex) and secondly because I do not have the recipe near me to write here for you. But I will try my best to write it down for you from memory:

1 egg, 3 T of veggie oil, 2 T of cocoa powder, 1/4 C flour, 4 T suger and 3 T of milk. Hah! I think I that’s it!

Just mix and microwave.

I splashed a little salt on top for the sweet/salty combo. Bad idea. Don’t do it.

One batch allowed for two of these cups. Just fill 1/2-3/4 of way. Dust with any remaining cocoa powder. You can really personalize these by adding flavors, soaked raisins, Kahlua or white chocolate chips. Just a few ideas.


my not so good, very bad day

Guest author: Emma


hello everyone. i thought i would be the guest author today and bring everyone up to date on how i’m doing. basically i’m doing a lot better. like 100% better, but mommy still wants to have this day be chill so i don’t ‘over do’ myself.

yesterday was horrible for me. i was spinning in the kitchen and watching mom singing the ABC’s on mommy’s cell phone when i lost my balance and fell down. i then was hot, tired and threw up a grand total of 5 times yesterday. i slept, rested and vegged the entire day.


mommy and daddy got a little worried and called the doctor but they said things were ok and that it was nothing serious. i am just super sensitive to spinning things and get extreme cases of motion sickness. lucky me.

but today is different. like totally. for breakfast i told my mommy that i NEEDED chocolate and ice cream because i’m still needing to get better. she laughed (how rude!) and instead we compromised on a waffle with nutella.

this is a picture of me being married. i told mom ‘i am married’ and she didn’t laugh like i thought she would. her eyes got huge and a worried look came over her face. she asked me where i learned that and told me i was too young to pretend being a bride. i think i totally freaked her out. (the power!!! muahaha!)

he then started to smile and said not to move so she could take  my picture. i posed. i’m beautiful.

there has not been any throw up (which i don’t like to do even though i get attention) and my hot flashed have left me. i’m starving today and really thirsty. mommy is super relieved.

the end.



hello rain. hello cloudy cold weather.


I’m already on my second cup of peppermint tea. Fire is on and in my pj’s. Great Sunday….well kinda…(read below)

Emma loves to twirl. But today she had too much of twirling and got so dizzy she fell over and started yelling/crying. She was scared. Then came the pattern Travis and I are getting familiar with when she gets too dizzy.


then fever. (in like 2 min-crazy)

then clings to whomever like they’re her lifeline.

begins to shake.

then gets drowsy.

then throws up randomly


You can see which stage she is in right now. We prayed to Jesus though and banking on the fact He will intervene and heal her little head before she wakes up.

~ As much compassion I have for her, I also randomly feel sad for Travis. I know that he was hoping our little girl would ride all the crazy rides with him at the amusement parks. Unfortunately, she seems to have my tolerance for spinning things. Like zero.  But who knows, maybe our next boy/girl will be Travis’ long awaited roller coaster partner. Here’s hoping.

Jamie and Sean

I had a great and somewhat surprising weekend. My sister and her boyfriend came for a planned visit- which I promptly forgot about till she texted me she was 20 min away. Oh snap. I took the fastest shower yet, got the princess and I dressed for actual people just in time to welcome them.

I was actually SO excited to have them here. I love hosting, but there is nothing better than having family visiting.

I took advantage and labeled myself the embarrassing sister and asked them to pose for me. They were of course super cool with it. It was his first time in Portland and of course it was raining. Boo. But he is from Seattle so he’s used to it.

Growing Plants

Emma has been so excited every morning to come down and look at our yellow daffodils that we bought a few days ago. They were only small buds when we brought them home and now she is getting the chance to see them bloom. Pretty cool. My sister is in town visiting and Emma yelled about how the flowers are getting bigger. 🙂


So I am capitalizing on this discovery by growing some plants ourselves. In teeny tiny pots. From the dollar section of Target. 🙂

I bought one for the each of us. Travis doesn’t count. (actually he just said he didn’t mind) I bought pink flowers for the princess and green peppers for myself. Pretty exciting huh…yeah, not. But I seem to use them a lot in most of my dishes and here we are.


I don’t know how you learn. I am first a kinesthetic learner. Learn by seeing and doing. Secondly, someone needs to tell me in detail. Like at an elementary level. So, I am going to explain to you now, how I am using this tool for learning in our pre-pre-school. And if this helps and gives you ideas cool.

Going to let her fluff the dirt pellet things, water and place in the window.

Then we’re going to talk about how plants grow and how they need sunshine…um which we don’t really have now and rain (which we have tons of). And then we’ll talk about how everything grows. People, animal and plants.

If she’s tracking really well and it’s easy for her I will then show her the beautifully made scrapbooks I spend way too long making and show her how she’s grown. From baby to now.

We will eat carrots and dip and talk about them growing in the ground. How we take them out, clean them and then gobble them up. 🙂 And of course how they are good or our bodies.

In what ways do you teach your child about things that grow?

Today is brought to you by the letter ‘E’

I am definitely felling more and more motivated to be teaching Emma more things during the day. And it’s mostly because of my friend who is homeschooling her 2 princesses. Just her normal way of explaining where her children are is really a wake up call for me.

I’ve looked up a couple things online as to what is age appropriate and start there. Here is the link. I have a friend too who asked me what Emma’s favorite activity was and I had to think…it was hard question for me. But then I start to question myself- I should know as her mommy what her favorite activities are. But I will not beat myself up over it, but will use it to motivate me to try new activities, do some school work and do my best to get her ready for school.

OK, and on that subject: I have tons (and I mean tons) of friends who are homeschooling their children. That’s fine with me and I don’t think anything negative about it. Each child is different and requires different learning techniques. For my Emma, she loves being with kids her age, learning things from other people and being in ‘school’ (her childrens class at church. Wherever she learned that I have no idea but it doesn’t bother me.) 🙂 My thoughts are that if fear is my motivator to want to home school, I need to let go of the control I want over her little life. I have some concerns about her in school, but no more than any other parent I think, however my job is to not only support the school/teacher but to walk through hard life moments with Emma. “Why didn’t sally want to play with me?”, “why is someone is being mean to me”, and explaining how other families need to see Gods love through her. That is, what I believe,  my calling to her. To pour out whatever Godly wisdom, compassion and love into her spongy heart.

I have friends who are teachers and I am constantly impressed that our teachers/schools need our help. The help of parents. I have heard horrible stories about schools and teachers which makes my skin crawl and want to lock Emma away from all bad people, but the greater majority of the teachers I know love their jobs. They have a huge amount of compassion for their students and often are forced into a part-parent role. Very sad. If I can help  out in any way to show I support what they do and also support my daughter, I would be happy do whatever is needed.

Which brings me to another topic. Pre-school and potty training. I am so excited for her to start school (even though I will bawl like a baby when I drop her off), but she has to be potty trained first and I’m using that as a motivator for me as well as her. Telling her about school but the requirement is she has to go potty in the toilet. It’s helping. And I’m betting she’ll be out of diapers by the summer.

As it is today, I get to be her teacher and teach her her numbers, letters and spiritual lessons which will form the foundation of who she is. Pretty cool. Scary too. 🙂 We parents have loads upon loads of responsability and at times it’s overwhelming. Thank goodness we have those silly moments when our kids do/say crazy things to break any frustration or tension.

OK, now off to make the letter “E” (for Emma) in a cookie sheet filled with flour. Bath time will follow.

Spring thoughts

Photo editing still down, becoming desperate and starting to want to look into other editing tools.

Some thoughts:

THIS blog is inspiring enough but her latest entry about stealing/pruning of some local branches with blossoms has made me want to walk outside more. Take a nature walk and come back with some goodies. I deeply love bringing the outside in.

Right now I have some bright cheery yellow flowers but there is just something about beautiful branches with flowers/blossoms/leaves.

Totally feeling the need to ‘spring-afy’ our little home here. And that means color baby. Color. I already have  some lemons and oranges, flowers and colorful candles. Any other ideas?

I am wanting to re-do our bedroom. It’s kinda a gathering  place for all our books. It is without a theme and it’s not very relaxing, which a bedroom must be. I’m thinking green and white. Fresh, clean and symbolizes life.

*warning: unedited dark picture coming…try to imagine it with a lot of light. Bright yellows and fresh neon greens.


I am trying to remain focused with fundraising. There are a lot of little things that can easily distract. (see above thoughts) and my heart is so in moving but it is such a huge undertaking that I constantly remind myself of the next baby step. One doesn’t leap over mountains, they are walked over.

Travis got me the most amazing tea pot, warmer, trivet and set of cups.  Did I ever tell you I collected tea pots? This latest is huge. Perfect for a large group.  They are all different but go together. He was apart of the choosing and that meant a lot to me. Can’t imagine how exciting it was for him to be apart of it all, but I loved having him with me. Thanks babe!

We came back from New York last week and I am happy to be done with traveling for a while. Bring on the mundane and boring and I will show you security and comfort.

Lastly, and most unimportantly I have added a bit of spring and color to my day. Emma picked out the color. 🙂


Bananas and Jane Austen

So the photo editing site I use to edit all my picts is kinda broken and I’m internally freaking out. It’s amazing how dependent I’ve become to posting picts. Maybe it’s just cause I’m such a visual person and even though you read this blog, I like seeing my pictures too.

So I will try to break through the ‘noooo, I can’t post without all my pictures pretty and edited!!!!!’ mindset.

So here it is. Yes it will be painfully clear which pictures are not edited. But I guess you get a  chance to see my raw pictures.


I have a friend, who I am sad to say I don’t get to see that often, who showed me this amazing recipe. He, yes he, made these while camping in a foil pouch and I loved them so much and have been craving something like it that I just decided to a couple days ago.

(Hi Mychal!! I miss you and  your beautiful wife Alexis!)

There is no need for a recipe, just look at the pictures and copy. You might like to know there is one banana per ramekin.

Picnik collage

You could have fun and mix in mint or peanut butter chips. Or colored marshmellos for a holiday or something. They decrease in cooking so don’t be too alarmed when you pop these babies into the oven and they resemble a mountain.


My Mt. Marshmello. It reduced GREATLY in size.

*if you cover with foil (like a teepee) the marshmellos will not expand.

There is no need for liquids to be added. The banana is liquid enough. Trust me.


We also had book club this past Friday. It went freaking awesome. I so love the women in our group and the insight and opinions they had to offer.

We laughed, had amazing mango pina coladas (oh yes- holla!) and amazing food. This is the peanut butter chocolate pound cake I brought. 🙂


There was no meat. No children. No boys. The book we read was Mansfield Park by Jane Austen. Wonderful book with a lot of underlying themes one could study for a while. We also watched the BBC version. Best attempt we all could find…but still the book is better.

It feels like a great accomplishment to have read a famous book like this one. Heck, to have read ANY of Jane Austen’s books feels like an accomplishment.

Our next book will be Sense and Sensibility.